One to the Head Will Do Just Fine

I would think I could get past some of this nonsense by now. I got a wonderful donation this past week with an excellent letter in regards to me as a person/caretaker of the department. My first thoughts are always of validation,
then I come to my senses and realize how big of a liar I am.
It hits like a ton of bricks.
I am actually living in limbo. It has come down to this.